Whoa “Legal Scholar” Theory Is Okay, But Life Is Better

So, I’m asking my clients, well maybe my friends this question,, is it better to have someone who knows about the theory behind human reproduction or is it better to experience it firsthand?

I use this and other silly explanations to show someone how to hire an attorney. You may want to read this and other silly posts about getting legal representation if you ever need a lawyer.

I liken hiring a lawyer to having that lawyer write a porno movie,, I liken hiring a lawyer to not having that lawyer wear a $10,000.00 saddle but be the $10,000.00 horse.

On and on and on my rambling thoughts go until someone, someday, somewhere listens and understands what I really say.

In the end of my time on this ball of dirt I call earth,, I hope to bring tremendous truth and healing to humanity. I can do it through law and through being present.

I often wonder why the great leaders of man over time never had much need to own things. Things like cars, land, houses, cattle, pieces of paper and I know that isn’t the answer.

I also know why a lot of them were alone in their life,, it is a journey that few can understand or accomplish and only a few will sacrifice to go on.

In today’s society,, it seems that most everyone I meet is only interested in their own interests,, not sharing a life with someone else who has this incredible journey.

I know that everyone in the world is unique, special,, one of kind,, and to give of themselves for the journey of another is well,, quite impossible to most.

I wonder how the people today function in a relationship,, it is always moving at the speed of light,, there is no time for just being together and no time for just being alone with your own thoughts and feelings.

I often wonder if the work I do and the life I choose will ever lead to balance,, just to being in the middle,, just to be.

I have spent my entire life in the extremes,, physically, mentally, spiritually, emotionally,  and energetically. I know no other way of life. It is perhaps why I am alone today,, I am me,, I question my right to exist, over and over and it affects my being.

My core issue is that,, plain and simple. As I find out more and more about it, I center and become present. When I am present,, I am the best possible me I can be,, and there is no way to beat that in the court room. Does your lawyer look at him or her self daily and study those hard questions about themselves?

If so,, hire that fucking lawyer right away,, you’ve discovered a thoroughbred,, not a $10,000.00 saddle. One who knows life and then can apply it to theory,, not the other way around. Peace.

Now’s The Time

It’s now time to decide who is or has one of the best “legal blogs” in the country or world.

I can say this,, my blog is read by more people than damn near anyone else who writes “legal blogs”,, and yet, I’m not one of the “pretty people” who gets their blogs listed in the “great lawyer magazines”.

I am not upset nor surprised,, I am just amazed that my record compared to those “pretty people” is a hell of a lot better and I connect more with people than those “lawyers”.

I guess in the end,, the numbers will show what I mean,, versus what the “all intellectual lawyer talking big word using pretty people tassel shoes lawyers” blogs.

Just or once let them know about the voice of justice and not the president of the country club giving an award to the vice-president of the same country club.

So here’s my challenge to all you “great legal minds” (and even those who think they are the greatest trial lawyers ever),,, let’s just you and me take some students and see who can train them better to win,, or even better yet,, let’s stand toe to toe in the arena and face off.

I’m always looking into the mirror,, are you? I mean,, what can the harm be? Certainly your ego isn’t that fragile,,, is it?

Can’t You See The Pain?

I am often asked by others,, how can we reward money for pain when we can’t see the “pain”?

I wonder what happens when someone looses their arm, leg or other appendage and needs it to make a living. Is it enough to just be awarded a monetary amount for the loss of an arm?

I seem to remember many, many, many years ago when there was a formula for each loss of a limb, finger, hand,,, etc. It went something like this,, 402 weeks times the amount of weekly compensation and then discounted by 2% if paid in full.

How is that justice? I suppose that we should cut the head off each politician who drafted the current laws and then award them a set compensation of $208.00 times 402 weeks for the loss of their head.

However, we should get a discount for benefitting society  by cutting the head off politicians, so that the end result is the lawyers get 25% of the recovery, the doctors get 60% and the poor client, who lost his head,, gets only 15%,, but we also must take out taxes,,, so now the client gets 4% of the recovery.

Since we pay it in a lump sum, the client now gets only 2% of the recovery and that 2% should pay for future medical bills after the initial 2 year “open medical treatment”.

Wow,, ain’t it great what the politicians have done to worker’s compensation? How does that help the people?

Yea,, can you see the pain,,, maybe not,, but if you feel it,, you can award damages for the pain you can’t see. Peace.

Going To Extremes Will Not Help

I write this truth because it’s how I feel. I can tell you that a person who has never experienced  alcoholism should not try to experience it for the first time because they have experience in being sober.

I can tell you a person who has over eaten to extremes,, should not starve themselves for 40 days. I can tell you that a person who has experienced life,, should not experience death, and then live to tell about it.

So why this truth? It seems that the more I am,, the more I am out of balance. The more I want what some consider “normal”,, the more I go to extremes to experience it.

I feel sometimes,, why jog a mile,,, why not run a triathlon? Why have just one small steak,, why not eat a 54 ounce steak, along with 12 shrimp, a dozen oysters and a slice of diet cheesecake. I also must drink a diet coke with this meal.

Perhaps those who read this can’t understand me, or may even want to, but this is my truth. What is yours? Peace.

Grounding With The 4 Elements

I am writing this post this morning very late. I stayed up late last night and finally got some sleep and rest that I need. Unfortunately, I fell asleep on the couch and did not have a blanket and now,, well,, I’m catching a sore throat again.

I write this morning about grounding. Yesterday, I saw one of my many, many, many therapists and guess what,, my core issues always come back to my right to exist.

I can not tell each of you all my life experiences, but I can tell you that all my imbalance in life comes from my questioning my right to exist.

I read, read and then read,, (although that alone is not enough,, just like reading a book on human reproduction is not the same as practicing human reproduction),, it gives me an understanding of the problem.

I have always questioned my right to exist,, even pre-verbal. I suppose that is why I do the things I do.

I lived my life in a “marriage” / “prison” of my own choosing,, inflicting pain on myself for many. many years and then I realize,, it’s all about my right to exist.

Looking over my life in a snap shot, I remember several times when I felt abandoned,, (like the time I was maybe 1 1/2 – 2 years old and wanted to go to the train tracks at the edge of our farm. I went there to explore,, then I got lost.

I remember seeing the roof of the barn and then walking through the rows of corn to get back to the barn. I survived on my own, with my own gifts I was given.

I remember knowing at 5 years of age I wanted to be a lawyer / rancher, and I later became that. I remember wanting to be a martial artist and became that. I trained in some very extreme arts and in the end,, none of those things brought me joy, or brought a joy clouded by alcohol and drugs.

I remember always questioning my right to exist. In my “marriage / prison” in placed myself in,, I always questioned my right to exist. And so be it,, that’s my life story, in a nut shell.

I say these things because they are my truth and guess what,, I’m fucking super sensitive. The things others say to someone else,, won’t affect them, but it tears my soul up.

Then again,, the things that destroy others may not affect me at all, or not.

I suffer pain others can’t imagine,, (like that of a prisoner of war)  not imposed by others,, but by me,, and can survive things others can’t because of that gift I have been given.

So anyway,, telling the truth is important, but grounding is more important. The 4 elements, air, water, fire and earth are elements I need.

It is now my mission to get a plant, a candle,  light and air in my space where I can center and find my joy. Also,, I’m going to hug a tree today.

Do you have the 4 elements in your life? Peace.

Life Update

I am living life one day at a time. It is important to me to note that living life on a daily basis means living life on a daily basis.

As a recovering alcoholic, I have that phrase ingrained in my head for over 20 years and have done my best to live it as I speak it. I often wonder if the founders of AA didn’t really know about just being present.

I say that if you are present,, you live your life one day at a time. I say that by being in the here and now,, you are sober,, experiencing life one moment at a time.

I spent many years under the influence of drugs and alcohol and never realized that all I had to do, (along with not drink or do drugs) was just be present.

When I think about the happiest times in my life,, it is when I am just present. When I am present, I am happy,, I am free,, I am creative and most of all,, I am me.

I wonder if anyone out there who reads these ramblings thoughts has ever been lost,, and if so,, are you present or thinking about something else? I use the word “thinking”,, because if you are feeling,, you are present and these thoughts don’t come into play.

I hope that every one of you has a life update and lives in the moment. Peace.

Intense Case Preparation

It’s time for an intense session of case preparation. I know a hell of a lot of people don’t bother getting ready for their cases the way I do, but here goes.

I am preparing for a trial in January and the area of work today is that of discovering the client’s story, jury selection, and opening statements.

I suppose that many of you readers may wonder how I prepare for trial, and I’ll tell you. I prepare by getting to know the client’s story,, plain and simple.

I can not stress enough the importance of getting to know the client’s story. I am known as a trial attorney and in order to be a trial attorney, I need to know absolutely the client’s story.

In getting to know the client and his story, it is not enough to just be present,, it is important to allow the client to discover him or her self and along the way,, look at yourself.

I have tried a tremendous number of cases in my time on the ball of dirt I call earth,, and I learn this most of all,, they will never care how much you know,, until they know how much you care. Peace.

Running Late And Oversleeping

Did you ever run late because you overslept? It ain’t a great feeling and guess what,, I’ve just done it.

I see that sometimes I get sick and run too hard,, well this time,, I just overslept. Peace.

Redefining Self

I am constantly redefining myself. I am always looking in the mirror and seeing things that need to be changed and then realize,, I am the only one who can change those things.

I am currently studying to be. To exist in the moment. To put away the past mistakes, lessons, experiences, joy and troubles and not to look to the future. I am living in the present.

People often ask me why live for the moment? It is incredible,, I am beginning to see my boundaries, my eyes are opening up and I begin to see what is in front of me.

I see the wonder of who I really am. I see the wonder of my journey and my life lessons. I see me. I do not always like looking into that mirror, but I do anyway.

Yesterday, (there I go, not being in the present) I became a dark part of me. I felt the things that most people don’t like feeling,, and most people have trouble getting out of those feelings when they go there.

I am fortunate,, I did not stay there,, I just sat and felt it. Anyone who says that they never go to the dark part of themselves isn’t telling the truth. I went there,, then left.

Everyone of us as humans has that dark side,, it’s how long we choose to go there that matters. How long do you sit in your dark side? Peace.

“In the end, we will remember not the words of our enemies, but the silence of our friends.”

I love that quote. I understand it is from Dr. Martin Luther King. It makes so much sense to me.

I am never one who is anything like that. I suffer each day and feel what I feel because I am present.

Some days I feel great joy,, some days great sorrow,, but I also connect and feel on a daily basis the love of my friends.

It concerns me when those I love don’t speak. It may mean I have offended them,, it may mean the might feel bad about telling me the truth. Whatever the reason,, when those I love are silent,, it disturbs me greatly.

I feel incredible love and have the extreme great pleasure of many, many, many friends,, whom I deeply love.

I have the pleasure of knowing the enemy and it is me,, although it manifests itself in others. I remember not the words of my enemies,, but the silence of my friends.

I suppose that in the end, all that matters is the feelings and friends that I have. I love it when they tell the truth. May peace be with you on a daily basis.